Allen & Unwin is pleased to announce the 2021 winner of The Australian/Vogel’s Literary Award, Now That I See You by Emma Batchelor.

This is an authentic, original exploration of complicated love.

‘The idea originated from and is based on my experience of my own partner’s transition from presenting as male to female. From the very beginning, I knew I would one day write about it, but it wasn’t until we separated that I had the time and space to do so. I took our actual letters and my journal entries and used them as a scaffold from which to build the story. It was also important to me not to speak for my partner or to tell her story.’ – Emma Batchelor

The Australian/Vogel’s Literary Award The Australian/Vogel’s Literary Award is one of Australia’s richest and most prestigious literary prizes for an unpublished manuscript from an author under the age of thirty-five. This longstanding award is integral to Australia’s cultural landscape, having launched the careers of over 100 Australian authors, including Tim Winton, Rohan Wilson, Kate Grenville, Andrew McGahan and Gillian Mears.

The judges were unanimous with their praise, saying:

‘A psychological masterclass in exploring why and how we become who we are and what that means for the people closest to us. This is a novel about love—of others and of self— and wants and needs and urges. The lovers at its centre have their own particular challenges, but deep down they could be any couple.’ –Stephen Romei, Literary Editor of The Australian

‘The story is an absorbing page-turner from the start, narrated in the first person with deceptive simplicity through a mix of diary entries, emails, to-do lists, and letters that contain enough variety to keep the narration fresh, and to keep driving the story forward. This is clever because it allows the narrator’s strong, direct voice to cut through, expressing her raw, real emotional upheaval and creating a persuasive impression of authenticity. The broader portrait of a relationship crumbling, and the questions raised about what it means to love, are things everyone can identify with.’ –Hsu-Ming Teo, author and a previous winner of The Australian/Vogel’s Literary Award.

Now That I See You details the breakdown of a long-term relationship after one partner discloses to the other that they are transgender. This piece of autofiction is told from the perspective of a female narrator over a period of eighteen months, spanning the first discovery of unknown feminine hairs in her male partner’s bathroom—through Jess’s transition from presenting as male to female, and then to the relationship’s eventual disintegration.

Personal journal entries and letters to Jess allow readers inside an uncomfortably intimate but poignant exploration of identity, gender, sexuality, love, partnership, grief and mental health. Now That I See You is split into three parts: Us, Them and Me, each with a different area of focus—the relationship and how it is impacted by Jess’s disclosure, Jess and the beginnings of their transition, and the narrator and her attempts to put herself back together.

About Emma Batchelor

Emma Batchelor is a writer and author from Canberra, Australia. After completing a Bachelor of Medical Science (Hons) at the Australian National University and taking many gap years to work and travel, she eventually embraced her desire to write about gender issues, societal analysis and fashion. Emma lives part time with her partner Jesse and full time with her cat Luna. Now That I See You is her first novel. ‘This is my lived experience. Being in a relationship with a transgender person, suffering a mental illness and eventually getting myself back together.’ –Emma Batchelor

PUBLISHED: 4 May 2021 IMPRINT: A&U RRP: $29.99 CATEGORY: Fiction EXTENT: 216pp